Mama is a little late, Happy 4 months my little monkey girl! 🐒 Where has the time gone?! It’s been so much fun experiencing new milestones with you. So young and innocent 🥰 This month she experienced her first belly laugh, and is now the master at rolling over! We love you Harp!! 💖
Speaking of recovery and feeling amazing and healthy.
After the majority of my life on antidepressants, I didn't want anymore. They never worked anyway.
I started struggling a couple months back again. It was getting worse.
I hate to say to much, because what I am doing is expensive and not right for everyone. And I feel awful for people that can't find some way to afford it. I don't just have the extra cash. It's extremely expensive for me, but I was desperate.
I started medically supervised ketamine infusions last month after a lot of research. It's hard to explain how much difference it's made in my life. This a a selfie I took yesterday during an infusion. One of the rooms is a cool salt room with a light wall. Anyway, it's roughly an hour. This was before anything hit me. That part is insanely relaxing and enjoyable. But that's gone almost instantly as I am unhooked.
The benefits are unreal and even after on session, a very clear difference. After 3 sessions, I am doing things I haven't done in years really because of how bad my anxiety is. I can't even compare it to an antidepressant, because none of them ever worked.
Anyway, just throwing this out there.
So as someone with severe depression and that dealt with years of a severe addiction. I'm not saying any of this without thought behind it.
This isn't advice. This is not a suggestion. I was sober 10+ months before I considered this. The doctor at the clinic, I was upfront with. It's too expensive for me to do all the time, even if I wanted to. However, I have had amazing results so far!
Oh and if you're in STL, this particular place can help hook you up with your medical card with @healthcity_mo . They are just super nice and helpful.
No. I'm not getting any discounts or anything. 🤣🤣 I don't even have my own card yet. And ketamine treatments are expensive everywhere, I checked.
This is just the best place in STL. ✌ I did my homework.
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If your mind isn’t fully on board with that goal you want to reach then it will not happen.
We are all prone to desire change for ourselves whether that be the way we feel, the way we look, the way we perform, etc. and there’s nothing wrong with that. But simply just “wanting” to feel/look/be better isn’t enough. Setting and achieving a real goal is something that happens on a much deeper level. It’s a matter of the mind (and other meaningful factors) that are truly the catalysts for changing habits and reaching your goal.
We think that behavior is the answer to success when in fact it’s our mindset. We have to train our BRAIN in order for the behavior to stick. 🧠
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Day 6 ♡
My anxiety and depression can make me a shitty friend, but I’m not sorry.
For as long as I can remember, I have always felt the need to apologize for my mental health struggles.
I felt the need to over explain everything. I always felt the need to apologize for canceling plans.
My mental health struggles come and go.I have good days, and bad days. When I have bad days, or weeks even, I disappear.
I don’t answer many texts, I don’t make plans, and if I do, I cancel them. It makes me not a very dependable friend, sometimes.
But I’m not sorry, anymore.
Sometimes I need to take a break from everyone.
Sometimes I need to take a step back and be alone, while I figure out what’s going on in my head.
Sometimes I feel ready to see you again, but I’m really not. I’m not ready to talk about the struggles I’m facing yet. .
I have always felt the need to apologize, and I’m done.
I don’t choose to struggle with this.
I don’t choose to have my thoughts racing all day.
I don’t choose to have a war with my mind everyday.
I don’t choose any of this.
I’m done apologizing for something I don’t have control over.
So, yes, sometimes, my mental health will make me a shitty friend. But that’s only because it is needed for my own sake.
So I won’t apologize for that anymore.
I won’t apologize for doing what is best for me.
And for the friends who have stuck around while I cancel plans, go radio silent, and patiently wait until I’m ready to talk, you’re the real ones. And I’m lucky to have you.
But, I’m not sorry for doing what I need to do to make my mental health a little bit better. .
I’m not apologizing anymore.